Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Another Beach Poem, Draft 1

Quietly migrating
from one damp environment to
another, I grit my teeth and
feel a piece of grit- a refugee
grain of sand that has sneakily
immigrated past the borders of
my lips to lurk on my
lower back molar,
be overturned by the
unknowing tongue,
tumbled about the way my body
was today tumbled about by
the crashing waves at the shore.

I don't bother
spitting it out,
even though I know
a pearl won't form there.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

About Exposure

A small note I made to myself in my notebook:

Sometimes, as with any time one opens oneself up to a new person in any environment, this "other" defines them self as even more so when their intentions differ so greatly from your own- as to wound or offend. I feel that I am a gentle yet rigorous person, rigorous yet not decisively invasive. It's okay to feel hurt, it means you are human. It's also okay to choose to avoid the potentiality of being hurt, especially if one is aware of one's state of vulnerability... There are times when I feel indestructible, and still other times I feel pulpy, soft, shy, damaged. It's okay to feel both, maybe better to feel both occasionally instead of one or the other constantly. It's good to feed other's what you yourself know you can grow strong off of.
As a reminder, the word "alone" is relative- no one is ever alone. We are cloistered or we are lonely, but never alone, never without some human but a few feet of drywall or brick or miles away. Never without some other human who has felt fear the way we have, whatever the nuances of circumstance.

--xoxo

Friday, July 8, 2011

Lift Drop

Very simply put.
The heart that get's thrown
into a greenhouse loaded with cacti
is then a beehive that's been abandoned
by all the bees and the honey is decaying,
it's a morning glory closed up at night,
a stubbed toe, it's a bird whose nest
was blown from a tree by a strong wind.
The heart now feels as if it's
the scalp of an elderly person,
with sparse, wispy hair. A book store
that went up in flames, a beach at low tide.
Now it's a cave that's perpetually dark,
a child that has misplaced it's blanket.
Because the saddened heart is an
overflowing basket brimming and filled
with too many flowers.

C.L. One.

Forms that clone themselves and in the
cloning are deformed, ready to burst,
multiplying, replicating their occasionally

bulbous masses. Sometimes they are
like galaxies seen from many trillions of
miles away; one splits and another

oblong, swirling mass is revealed---
with no shadows, and nothing to hide in
their absent shadows because they've been

ripped from a dark place and
overexposed
to light at
it's highest
degree.

Thrown

his slovenly mouth touched a bell jar like a
crocus nudging the early spring dirt and
i've decided that peeling fingers is easy but a
skull like a styrofoam dome
is harder to ring than bells without pendulums.
my skin withers like an ill-fated house plant---
everyone wants sea shells for ears with
the lullaby of oceans murmuring there---his
limbs were merely buttoned on, detachable,
replaceable, and he waited in the dark of his box
to spring out, wound up, and knowing nothing
better than to grin, and look evil---snakes
can't expose themselves because
they shed themselves in layers.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Secret Lake

Abandoned quarry
with water surprisingly clear
sandy bottomed and surrounded
by pines in a forgotten swatch
of New Jersey.
Gutsy sunfish hover
around my ankles, and the
solstice sun warms my back,
airplanes buzz peacefully overhead,
like bored bumblebees,
droning in straight lines.
Sandy shores and tiny pebbles,
the occasional zealous cicada
hidden in the brush.
The fish are small and the same
color as the sandy bottomed lake.
In the shallows, the water is so clear
it's as though they are swimming
through air. And for them
it is air,
their humble shadows cast on the bottom
more visible than they themselves;
they congregate around my toes
like curiosities.
The fish are the leaves
of the lakes trees, moving and swaying
in unison with the lakes winds,
the currents.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Cridget

It veers to the left, on maps
millimeters equal miles and everyone
gains 15 pds. on T.V. A cridget's
average sized companions look
inordinately tall but in reality he's
just unusually small.
It he a majesty or a travesty?
Rumpleforeskin!
Rumpleforeskin!
Rumpleforeskin!
Riddle me this,
can a cridget's crigdick
take H.C. to bliss?
Rise for the Earth Mother,
biological anomaly!
Don't get tricked
by the crigdick.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

The Past is Vast [unless you're oblivious, that much is obvious]

(and of course the line of the horizon, infinite, beckons, handless.)
Get a handle,
get a handle on this,
(so you've heard it all before?
learn to unhear, to rehear, to deafen, to know
that you know
absolutely nothing.)

(and absolutely
nothing is absolutely everything, we
witnessed a teensy butterfly quivering,
clapping wings, if you can call them wings,
flapping midair beside
the ocean, above the shore.)
we dusted pebbles off our rear-ends,
sun singed skin singing,
sand clinging- taking a trip
on the other side of the tracks,
our ass cracks.

You darling dark
haired merwoman,
light eyed, your cells stuffed with sun rays,
overflowing, actually a little red
and angry (like you, like me).

vastness infinitely vaster,
sand enmeshed flesh,
little cells, little grains,
little big things embedded in
our brains, grandeur is
every granule.